The Flesh Vs The Spirit In Action…
The Flesh Vs The Spirit (Real Life Examples Follow)
In the book of Romans we are given insights into an ongoing battle every Christian will face. I am speaking of the battle of the flesh vs the Spirit.
And a great way to teach you, is to just provide you practical example to see for yourself.
I started 2020 with 299 Subscribers and I am currently about to break 1,200+ subscribers by end of 2020.
BUT IT IS NOT ENOUGH!
This is what my flesh says on a day to day basis.
“You should have a much bigger audience, based on your knowledge, your skill and ability.
THOUSANDS SHOULD WATCH YOUR VIDEOS THE MOMENT IT GOES LIVE.
HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS!”
Those comments you get saying:
“your video is such a blessing. And it helped me understand what I just could not understand.”
Seriously, even thoughts of X, Y, Z Bible teacher has nothing on me trickle through my mind from time to time too.
BUT ISRAEL, YOU REALLY ONLY STARTED TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY ABOUT 12-15 MONTHS AGO
(AND REALLY SERIOUSLY 7 MONTHS AGO)
ALL THOSE YEARS YOU COULD HAVE DELIVERED MORE TO MY PEOPLE.
YOU COULD HAVE BEEN THERE TO PROVIDE ANSWERS FOR MY SHEEP.
THE THINGS THAT YOU THOUGHT WERE BASIC, WERE THINGS WHICH COULD STRENGTHEN MANY WEAK KNEES.
AND YOU KEPT IT FOR YOURSELF, OR THE FEW THAT WERE CLOSE BY!
BUT NOW YOU EXPECT THOUSANDS OF MY SHEEP ISRAEL?
JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE ‘ABILITY’?
And although my flesh takes some truth and some madness, stirs it up, and tries to get me sidetracked from doing what you want me to do, your Spirit keeps me sane, because I know a big reason right now I do not have thousands watching, and even more people sending messages about my teaching blessing them is because of,
…I am angry with myself from both sides…
(This next sentence sums up the battle of the flesh vs the Spirit)
I am Angry I do not have more vs Angry I did not do more, based on the comments I get today so regularly.
What you have just read is one of my biggest struggles this year between my flesh and Spirit.
I want more, because my God given abilities deserve more, but know I do not have more, largely because I do not deserve more, and am not truly ready….
If I was honest and in God’s stead, right now I would not give me more either. It is not a matter of “Let me Give Israel more just because I know he has ability and a desire to feed my sheep. I would still have to walk by his side and guide him until he was ready.”
Most people dwell on the flesh part of this battle and never consider the Spiritual reasons.
If I was serious from years ago, I would most likely not be going through this now, and many more people would have been strengthened by my teaching.
EVERYONE WOULD BE HAPPY!
GOD would be even more pleased with me, the sheep God desired for me to tend would be well nourished, and I would be even happier than I am now.
This is just one battle the Lord is moving me through and refining me to be even stronger for his kingdom.
Sometimes I wonder, why God would use someone like me who can have these kind of fleshly thoughts of pride, and entitlement. A me, me, me mindset before the sheep. Some may say shades of narcissism.
This is me, laid quite bare, some deep thoughts out in the open, and what I feel led to share with you.
And if you feel to share one of your struggles God is overcoming with you right now, feel free.
This is not only a place of honesty, but uplifting and sharpening.
I love God because he is a God of COMPLETE TRUTH and with him, we do not have to hold anything back.